Wednesday, February 22, 2006

Thanks for all the views...

This blog started out and continues as a personal exercise, a place to flesh out thoughts, to tame those whirling dervishes that dance in this head, and to bring a semblance of sanity to a mind that is “A Greyhound station, where I send my thoughts to far-off destinations

Writing for me was catharsis, a way to lay those demons in my head to rest. It was a way to retain my sanity as the world about me fell apart, me the Nero, writing as my Rome burnt.

Well, I exaggerate. My world was/is fine, the sky isn’t falling on our heads, but yes, I’m probably a bit wack in the head, as you may have concluded from some of the stuff I post here. That some of you think it’s worth their while to come here and give my wild thoughts their time is touching.
When I meet or talk to people in meatspace, and these people tell me that “I read your blog. You write well.” I wonder what this world has come to. I look at my sitemeter. Though it doesn’t move like the meters on the rickshaws in most Indian metros, it has shown a steady trickle. I look at the hits and where they come from. I wonder, “Why are these people here? Is any of my writing this interesting? The purpose of this exercise was that – to better my writing. Is it working?”

Maybe it is. Maybe it isn’t. But thanks for keeping the faith. Keep coming back. Especially if you think any of this is worth it. The best analogy to personal blogs like this one is the one Michael Higgins uses – some of these blog posts are chocolates – the quick taste gives you a few seconds of pleasure. Some may be gold coins – genuinely valuable nuggets that you may want to pass around in perma-link form. Be it for chocolates that you come here, or for gold coins or maybe just for vela time-pass, thanks.

No, there are no anniversaries or landmarks coming for this blog (It’s almost eighteen months and over 200 posts old). This is just one of those “from the bottom of my heart” posts that I’m putting out because I feel it from the bottom of my left ventricle.

8 comments:

Anonymous said...

Reading your blog has been informative but to say that all the stuff has been a true expression of what you are or as you say demons to rest.well,i do raise my eyebrows on that.

Anonymous said...

left ventricle or left testicle??:)

navrina said...

Writing to you is catharsis, and reading your blog does that for me !What I like about your blog is "variety"...since my blog pretty much is limited to feelings - its nice to know that there are people out there in sync with the world and not confined to their own (like me). I read your blog every morning ( just like cnn ;-)) So keep writing!!!!

Navrina*

Ajay said...

Anon: Close friends have been able to read past the abstractions and gratuitous movie/music references to see what I'm thinking. I am careful about not making this blog personal in the real sense where I refer to people and incidents fully.

Cathy: :-)

Navrina: I didn't know you blog as well. A blog is your domain - write whatever you feel like... I'm pretty self-centered - but my circle of self might be larger :-). Thanks for your loyal readership.

Ajay said...

Anon: One more qualifier. My life isn't all that super-eventful. So all my posts aren't the cathartic or venting variety. Some of them are. Many are simply, as the title of this blog states, musings, opinions and so forth.

nupur said...

I think you have well expressed thoughts. You also sound really sober minded. :-D I dont know why you think youre a wacko!

Ajay said...

An attempt at self-deprecating humor, DQ. It is under-used and under-appreciated.

CAR said...

Well Done Ajay! I just crossed 100 and thought that was a big deal! But in any case, I enjoy your posts. For some reason, they have a color of white to them. Very calming! Keep going!!